Thoughts From Jesse, One of Randy’s Sons

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Do we walk by faith or by sight? Do we look at the terrifying circumstances, or the Words he has given us? Did David take notice of Goliath’s massive size or the quality of his armor and weapons? Yes, he was not naive, he knew what he was getting into, but he trusted God more than he feared the giant. He had no doubt in his mind that what God had made clear to him, he would surely do. David ran at the giant, he did not zig nor zag and wonder if God would be with him. He trusted God fully (1Sam 17).  Heb 13:8 says, “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever.”  Numbers 23:19 says,  “God is not a man that he should lie…” He also says, “If any man ask for wisdom he will give it” and “If any man be willing, he will show you if it is of man or God.” We have been crying out for wisdom on which treatments to use or what surgeries to have, and God made it clear to my father that we were not to do radiation or chemo because of what he showed us while we were crying out for wisdom like he said. “Ye shall not need to fight in this battle: set yourselves, stand ye still and see the salvation of the Lord…Fear not, nor be dismayed for tomorrow the Lord will be with you,”( 2 Chron 20:17.) The Lord has led my father to this place by his Word, just as he led the children of Israel up against the Red Sea with the cloud and pillar of fire. The cancer is closing in to kill my Dad just as the Egyptians were closing in to kill Moses and God’s people…. Just as Moses and the people were in the center of God’s will, so my father is in the exact place the Lord led him. “Moses said, Fear not, stand ye still and see the salvation of the Lord,” (Exodus 14:13.) As I look into His Word, crying out for wisdom and understanding, he continues to show me hope and promises of salvation from earthly troubles and to stand still, and watch the salvation of the Lord. I believe that my father will be healed fully from this cancer, that everyone watching may know that the Lord is the one true God. I am human, and when I see my big, strong Daddy, that two months ago could out squat me, not even able to feed himself or walk down the road without two of his sons holding his hands, or to even say, “I love you” to my sweet mother, when I see his right arm is completely out of use and his right leg is dragging like an old man my heart hurts, my flesh wants to dwell on the things my eyes can see rather than Words he has given us. I am of little faith. In Mark 11 Jesus curses a fig tree and tells it it will never bear fruit. The next morning Peter says, “Jesus look! That fig tree you cursed is dead!” Jesus said, “Have faith in God” “…Whatever you desire when you pray, believe that you shall receive them and you shall receive them.” Jesus does not want us to be surprised, shocked or pleasantly surprised when what he said would happen, happens. He says to have faith in God and believe. I am believing that God will be the same God for Daddy as he was for Moses at the Red Sea. He told us that we would not need to fight this battle, that all we had to do is stand still and see the salvation of the Lord. I believe, and in my weakness I ask our heavenly father to forgive my unbelief. “We have no might against this great company (Cancer) that comes against us, neither know we what to do: but our eyes are on thee.” (2 Chron 20:12)
        “All things work together for good to those who love God.”
I understand that good people die, I understand that good people die young. I am not saying that because my Dad is a good person I believe that he will live. I am saying that what God has said WILL happen. Do I know exactly how it will look? No. However, God has made certain things clear to myself, my father, and many other brothers and sisters through His Word during a time of crying out for wisdom and mercy and asking God to give us wisdom through His Word as he promised. “If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him” James 1:5. “If anyone is willing to do His will, he will know of the teaching, whether it is of God or  I speak from Myself” (John 7:17.) He says if we are willing to see his will, he will show us. I have been willing to let my Dad go, in some ways it would be easier knowing that he is on his way out……… But, God through his Word has made it clear to us that we are not to fight this battle, but that the Lord will fight this enemy and all we must do is believe and watch the salvation of the Lord. Now, we have two choices, believe that what God has said and shown us from his Word will happen, or not. No ifs, ands, or buts. Either we take God at His Word fully, or not at all. To be honest, my father, myself, and others have been seeing much wisdom and light from His Word on this matter the past months. So why am I just now coming out and saying what God has shown me on this? Because I am weak, my faith is small, I was walking by sight and fear rather than faith in the Words he has given us. The Lord convicted me that if I am afraid to tell the world what I believe with my whole heart, if I am not willing to climb out on a limb, hang my hat on it, bet the farm, and my very faith on what He has said and made clear to me, then I don’t believe at all. Christ says “…Whatever you desire when you pray, believe that you shall receive them and you shall receive them.” Believing does not mean you think it will most likely happen, It means you have no doubt in your mind that what He has SAID He will surly DO. My Lord showed me through His Word that my Daddy was not to fight this battle and to stand and see the salvation of the Lord. I am believing that just as I believe that, “For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life.” If believing God at His Word is crazy, then I pray the Lord makes me a crazier man each and everyday. “And straightway the father of the child cried out, and said with tears, Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief.” (Mark 8:11)